The popular Twitch streamer QTCinderella says she would be a 'happier person' if she could go back and tell her younger self to choose a different career.
The 31-year-old, real name Blaire (she does not make her second name public), became famous for playing video games and cooking meals in live videos for her 1.2 million followers online.
In 2021 she created the annual Streamer Awards, which will be streamed online on Saturday.
But she told the BBC while she felt 'incredibly lucky' to be in her position, the negatives of the role - ranging from being under constant scrutiny to at times being concerned for her safety - makes it difficult to enjoy.
'If I could go back and never experience some of the things I've experienced because of this job, I do think I would be a happier person overall,' she said.
'The biggest thing I wish I could do, if I went back and was able to whisper in my ear, I would say, don't do it.'
Throughout 2025, several female content creators have spoken out about concerns of their safety, particularly when attending public events.
In March, three US Twitch streamers, Cinna, Valkyrae and Emiru, faced an alarming situation when a man threatened to kill them during a live-stream.
At the annual streamer event TwitchCon in October, another incident occurred when a man from the crowd grabbed Emiru, attempting to kiss her without consent.
QTCinderella has also dealt with harassment and fear stemming from her popularity. She noted, 'I could open my Instagram DMs right now and read you 100 horrible things about why or how I could be harmed by people.'
In 2021, Blaire reported spending over $2,000 monthly to have unauthorized images removed from the internet, and in January 2023, discovered a website using her likeness for deepfake adult content.
Despite opening a craft shop in Los Angeles, she feels unsafe going there due to unwanted attention from male fans.
In preparation for the upcoming Streamer Awards, she aims to ensure safety for all attendees, acknowledging the event's potential for drawing in negativity, which she wants to counteract by bringing people together in celebration.
While she admitted wrestling with streaming-related 'drama,' she expressed a desire to cultivate positivity in the online space, stating, 'For me, it's really important to bring people together, because I do think there's lots of toxicity on the internet.'


















